An Essay on Ethics

Sometimes I hate how people can be so fucking cold. I am not perfect. I know. But what the fuck did I ever do to receive so much aggression from that…I reserve my comments on that person. I can only sigh. Sometimes I wish people could just live.

I just don’t get it. It is so easy. Just like I don’t hate that one person. I don’t hate anyone. Sure, I can find people annoying, some outright distasteful to the point I don’t wish to speak to them; but, I don’t think I could hate. It takes so much negative energy that poisons the body. The taste of that feeling nauseates me.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I am not suggesting everyone should go out screaming “love.” I just want some damn integrity. If you can’t make good, at the very least, don’t make bad. Many people suffer enough. Even those who smile, sometimes, they hurt the most; they just hide it. Just accept the people around you.

As a side, I’ve always wanted to comment on the “coexist” stickers popular with a lot of people, mostly with the younger folk. They irk me. Let me explain. Coexisting implies learning to live in the same place, saying that we just need to learn to accept the people around us and let them be. Sure, that’s what I ask for. But, I would like some day to see our world live with each other. I hope one day that we don’t have to coexist. I hope that one day we can all just form a true ecosystem where we can all depend on each other, offer each other respect, and prevent situations like the one I comment on.

I am not a damn saint. I will never be. I’ve broken laws. I’ve broken rules. I’ve even broken my own ideals. And, that last one is that one that hurts the most. That’s why I fight so hard to simply smile at the people that I dislike. Not because I want to be “the better” person. I like to acknowledge  the fact that we are all faulty beings, to fight my own prejudice and move on.

But everything needs a start. So although the coexist bumper stickers annoy me, I respect them. They are the path to what I want. And for the record, that’s why both novels I am writing deal with prejudice. Absolution Symphony outright deals with religious zealotry and how narrow views fuck with society. And, my second novel, the one I wish to publish first, Jack Meredith deals with my own personal venture to annihilate my own prejudices. That’s why its a science-fiction, cyber-punk, novel.

I really do apologize that I haven’t put up any creative work here on a long time. Over the next few months, I should increase the amount by an insane amount as I will no longer go to school or even work (I need a summer job but I haven’t heard back from any of the places I applied to). I just hope I can keep myself busy for three full months. And yeah, in a sense, this was both a pretty random essay, update, and personal note (which I promised not to put up to but I feel I disguised it well enough).

My offer on the other story thing still stands. If you would like to read the Witch and the Journal before I go far, I would be okay releasing a page or two.

Journey on, people.

-e